:(

I leave tomorrow.  Tomorrow.  Not the day after... not even 24 hours from now.

I was with my friend today and he said "What are you feeling?"  and I said "Nothing actually.. I don't feel anything yet."

Then I got home about an hour and half ago, and it finally hit me that I'm leaving and now I can't stop crying.

Do you realize how many good things are here?  People here CONSTANTLY interact with other people.  They interact with people they don't know.  They interact with their neighbors, and they visit family all the time.  There are always people, and everyone here is sociable.  Nobody is afraid to meet new people.  Not one.  If you're lonely, just go to your neighbor's house.

I saw Shefa's aunt and cousins again today to say goodbye... it wasn't too bad until I was walking away and everyone was standing together with the same sad face, especially the kids.  "We will miss you Chiri.. come back.  Stay with us."   Then I was talking to Shefa' on the phone after I got back and she got silent for a few seconds.  Then I heard her cry.  :(

I'll miss making the mistakes like trying to say "How were your classes today?" but saying "How were your drugs today?"

I miss home but it really hurts to leave here actually.  Like a lot.  And since I always see colors, I see them now.  This is the best image I could find to match it.. it should be a little darker though.  It's weird because the placement of each color is accurate:

AND I think I mentioned that Dabke dance is probably now my ultimate favorite dance ever... Motaz sent me this link on my facebook.. I LOVE IT.

Watching that makes me feel better.  And the bus video.

My bags are soooooooooooooooo heavy.  I can't even lift them :(  Everything fits but weighs a TON.

That's all for now.. I'll be seeing everybody soon